Dear Ajji ..

Ajji, (Grandma)
Is there anything I can do to be able to hug you just one more time?
I never really told you how much I loved you..

When I was busy running around in the house, I could see you watching me from the corner of my eye.. perhaps you wanted me to stop for a little while and sit by you.. tell you sweet little things from my world..
I know it wasn't a whole lot that you wanted..
then why didn't I give it?

When I came back home late with lots of colorful shopping bags in my hand, I could see you waiting for me at the door.. perhaps you wanted me to show you all those things one by one, and ask you to choose what looked best on me..
I know it wasn't a whole lot that you wanted..
then why didn't I give it?

When I came to India just for 3 weeks in a year, you would come and stay with us in our house.. perhaps you wished I could reserve at least a one whole day, just for you ...
I know it wasn't a whole lot that you wanted..
then why didn't I give it?

I still loved you Ajji! .. a lot!
Will you tell me once, that you knew it already?

Did I take you for granted?
I never imagined the possibility of the day when you'll go away.. vanish from my world, just like that!
I thought I can sleep resting my head on your lap, any time I wanted.. all my life!
I never knew that there's only so much of you, that I can have in my life..

I am writing this, hoping you will read it some day.. somehow..
and then kiss me on my cheeks, and say "Majhi Chhakuli!" .. like you always did..
Will you?

Majhi Ajji!My dearest Ajji!

Sailee...

"Sailee" is a name of a flower in my mother-tongue Marathi.

Mamma once said that she always wanted her Sailee to be just like the flower of "Sailee" .... Radiant, Fragrant, Beautiful, Innocent, Pure and Divine!

Sometimes I wonder whether I am doing justice to my name!
I wonder whether I am doing justice to mamma's dreams when she gave me that name!
I wonder...

Things I Hate...

Eating meals alone ...
Bird Cages
Gossiping
Milk
Restroom queues
Visiting Doctor
Excuses
"Forward this or You'll die" Emails
Wake-up Alarms
Injustice
False Flattery
Seeing my parents sad
People touching my Nose
Dead Ends
A week after horror movie (esp the bathroom visits in the night)
I don't want to think of the things I hate anymore....

Some things I am fond of ....

Pillow fights
First joke in a serious conversation
Baby’s hands
The star closest to the moon
The last 5 minutes of a game
The first bite of pizza
My Grandmother's innocence
The “Enter” key on the keyboard
Mamma’s wedding saari
The sketches of the teachers on last page of a notebook
Long long drives
Giving surprises
Puppies sleeping over each other
bird's wings..
Ripples in water
Window Seat
Everything I can see at the horizons
Places where sound echoes
Going high up on the swings
moments after forgiving someone
Kites and Gas Balloons
Playing with kids...
Feeding birds..
A hand-written letter in the mail box.....
And more ...................